I will never

I will never find love. I will never be loved. I respect myself, and I am so full of pride, yet so full of sin and dirty things. And I will never fall for a man unless he is absolutely perfect. But, a perfect man will never fall for me for the latter stated reason. I will never give a man butterflys in his stomach. No man will never waste hours just thinking about me. I am not on anybodys mind. Nobody will ever think I am something special. And nobody will ever want to spend their life with me. This is something that I have always known. I will never get my "first kiss" I will never look into somebodys eyes and just see love I will never even know love And I will be alone. My heart will always have a void. Some little part of it will always be empty And as the years pass by, and so do more people That void will get bigger. And bigger And bigger And I will search the world and see and do all that I can. But the void will never be filled. Everyday, I will try to accept it a little more. I will look away, and pour my life into something else But then I will get bored And I will be left with the void Because being in love is knowing that you can be anybody, anything, and you will always have a man beside you Being in love is being yourself, with somebody else and enjoying and exploiting every second of it. Yes. You can be happy without being in love. But you can not be complete Because love just fills through every gap and crack and heals it. It dances and swirls and consumes you Through lovers eyes, you are not a person you become a being a state Without it you are a body, a corpse but where does your soul lie So no, I do not need a man to make me happy I am wildly independent and fierce But, in life, you are supposed to share these are qualities with others they are not to bind you where you stand. where i stand